good evening readers/bloggers/critics/ you know what it doesnt even matter
recent events have come about time has flown bye,, and its about tht time tht i grow up,, plain and simple recent events have made me realize you cnt have everything you want,, thts just the way it is you cnt change people the way you want them to be,, thts like tryna play god or something,, people change when they want either they do or they dnt there not wrong for tht,, nobody should ever feel wrong by the decisions they make thts just lifee,, scrolling through the corridors of my inner thoughts ive came across a file entitled "growing up",,
searching through these files and with careful analysis, im sorry to all to everyone,,
whoopi,, i mean whitney im sorry.. this thing has got way out of hand for nothing,, i dnt blame you for anything, your living your life the way you enjoy it,, nothing wrong with tht it just isnt fair the way i attacked you off my insecuritys,, do i blame you no,, this shit is pointless you know
tyler,, you know and i know nowandlater her ownperson,, im sorry for feeling like you were always hangin around this and tht you know this shit has gotten way out of hand,,
and last but not least nowandlater,, plain and simple ive never loved anybody the way i loved you hands down,, sometimes im not even ashamed to me i obsessed over you, do i feel it was wrong no because i love you,, i cnt change you i know i cnt it wouldnt even be the same if you let me,, the head on your shoulders are damn near brilliant ,, your poetry in motion,, great things are in your future,, and maybe im not in them,, not bitterness towards tht,, you think logic and i can dig tht,, i think not playing god or anything but whtever comes up or perhaps whoevers in your future your gonna be happy,, theres somebody out there a gazellion times better than me but your special nomatter how bad things ever get for you just remember tht,, your image is just a glimpse of heaven,,
im i doin this for fame,, nah,, am i doin this to suck up or make my face look good,, not by a longshot not psychic or anything but 7/10 times these apologizes will not be accepted,, but thts cool and i still will look at everyone the same except you nowandlater your special beyond my eyes,, life goes on time flys and you realize things are in constant motion,, no time to stop and dwell on it i know im missing maybe a few screws but im still living life has just like the rest a human being,, gettin all this out just reminds me tht i make mistakes but i will not be determined by them,, reality bites like a python(charles hamilton).. but im up for the challenge of living life day by day knowin i tryed to be somebody,, and im gonna be somebody,, nowandlater i love you i do but i also dnt run your mind the puppy love days are overtime to take time and just be human,, join me on my supernatural vacation
im leaving but ill be back in a couple dayys,, i doubt many people read this blog but its just a piece of my thoughts,, the corridors of my brain,, the desperate tears for sanity..
Rivers in Reverse - Charles Hamilton-peace.
8:11 PM.
